Currently Listening Ain't No Other Man By Christina Aguilera see related

So this summer was my moment to reflect on many issues, I have as an individual. Majority of my vast shitty reflectionary issues were fixed. Getting a 3.70 for the summer, Losing 21 pounds, feeling stable in my mind and my approaches to my vast friendships. I have realized that I finally thought me being SINGLE the most demeaning, scarey and depressing word for me, I thought I was over it. I thought I got to a place where I could be ok with not having that other special love in my life. Again, I jumped the gun. Its like a favorite Movie, that you know all the lines, laugh at the same places, scream at the same parts. For me this my silent movie, that turns into a nightmare. That I know all of the lines of, Cry and scream at all the same places. Being a Burntout College student, stepping into the residence halls, I understand that I become a different person from when I am not in these confining halls.

The reason this Entry is existing, is because I have someone so exceptional, so what I invision, what I can see as my potential future, with a little twist, but I cant have it. In my silent Movie my character always ask, Why Cant Things Go My Way? I just dont understand, why people that I picture my wedding with, or kissing under a shade, or even just holding, cant be my reality. I swear it messes with my mind, Being Sweetm Kind, a Gentleman, a Good moralistic child not enough. I hate fucking pondering these triffling questions, its like Asking Rosa Parks, Why she didnt get up out that seat? Its fucking annoying. I like this person, I swear the deepest story I ever saw, its an emotional, romantic, trancing, piercing Story. I am such a sucker for that shit, and its rough that I have that gift of seeing that in people. This person blew me away with that story from the moment I saw it.

I dont know, how this story will play out, but I dont think it will work in my favor like allways. But we will work it out to the best of my ability.

Doesnt it suck, that when Things get emotional, follow through falls off. I just hope I can keep it from fucking me up.